As a doula, a birth witness, we find ourselves on the outside of care. The Mama and Dad of the baby receive emotional support, the nurses, docs, midwives have circles of support, and the doula finds herself lost, spiraling, grieving wholly, without support.

Mending Invisible Wings is written for mothers who have lost a baby. It is also written for doulas and childbirth educators and nurses and midwives and docs and anyone who loves and supports women in the childbearing years. Mending Invisible Wings gives a gentle, private outlet for grief.

If you are in need of gentle healing after witnessing the death of a baby or supporting a mother through her loss, please know that Mending Invisible Wings: Healing from the loss of your baby, is for you, too.

with love,

m.

The holidays are coming and I’m not sure I’m ready. I’m not sure I’ll ever be ready again. It’s winter and I feel as frozen inside as the landscape is outside. I tried making out my gift list today, but the tears kept getting in the way. It is so hard to think about gifts and fun and the holidayswhen a loved one has died.

As I get out the dishes and count the silverware, I am acutely aware of the empty place at the family table. I’m trying to find the holiday spirit, but when the family circle has been broken by death, the only things that sparkle this season are my tears. – From Care Notes, by Darcie D. Sims

With the upcoming arrival of the holiday season, we are thinking about the many parents we’ve met who, like you, have experienced the loss of a baby or babies. This season can be difficult for those who are grieving. We’ve found that when people have the opportunity to share these experiences, there is an opportunity to find light in the season. In the weeks ahead, we will be sharing material, thoughts, activities, handouts, which are specific to the holidays and those who are grieving. We hope that you will join us.

“Things have been better for me, since the last meeting. I’m not thinking about my losses every minute of the day like I was. I feel like I’ve healed some, and I’m sure it has a lot to do with the Group!”

– Mending Babyloss Group Participant, 2010

All groups meet on Monday evenings from 6:30-8:00 pm at St. Luke’s Health Education Center. Upcoming Dates:
•    December 6, 2010
•    December 20, 2010
•    January 3, 2011

We have been re-thinking the structure of the Mending Babyloss Support Groups. We have realized that people are better served when there are at least three people in the group, as three people can provide community and promote supported discussion from others who are facing similar losses. We are now asking that people call or email a group facilitator (www.mendingbabyloss.wordpress.com) by the Sunday before the group to let us know that they will be coming. Then, if there are fewer than three people attending, the attendee can decide if a smaller group would still meet their needs.

The holidays can become a time of peace and reflection, a time to cherish the gift your loved one has been – and continues to be – in the life of your family.

We hope to see you again in the days ahead.

In Support,
Christine Gibbs, Mary Adler, and Mary Burgess

If you, or if someone you love, has lost a baby, show your acknowledgment of this loss by lighting a candle at 7pm, your time wherever you are.

There will be a wave of light blanketing the earth, a world-wide reaching out and showing of support for those infants lost.

May this be a gentle night,

m.

I had the pleasure of reading Mary Burgess’s book Mending Invisible Wings; a Healing Journal for Mothers. The spiral bound journal style book is full of affirmations, activities and exercises to assist mothers as they heal from the loss of a child due to miscarriage, stillbirth or infant death.

The journal is divided into four parts, each with many exercises that lead the mother through a variety of activities that engage all the senses. Each exercise includes an action, affirmation and self-nurturance activity. This journal boasts plenty of space dedicated to journaling, writing and drawing, so everything can be contained in one private, personal space.

This book could be just the right gift to give to a mother who is dealing with the death of a child. The journal will allow the mother to work through her pain and grief at her own pace, guiding her through this difficult process.

Mending Invisible Wings: Healing From the Loss of Your Baby
By Mary Burgess with Shiloh Sophia McCloud
Palm of Her Hand Publications

(see Purchase section for more information on purchasing Mending Invisible Wings)

Mending Invisible Wings: Healing From the Loss of Your Baby, by Mary Burgess. 2009. (Healdsburg, California: Palm of Her Hand, $29.50, 175 pages, spiralbound.)

From the beginning of this sensitive journal and spiced throughout are lovely black and white drawings. Even if a mama is too grief-stricken to read or write words at the beginning of her grief journey, she can still take in the insightful drawings. Phyllis Klaus provides a gently loving Foreword. The journal moves parents along through the healing process with poems, tender words and places for the reader to write her own affirmations and to tell her story. This is an interactive journal and remembrance of the baby with many places to tell the baby’s story.

This book adds just what is needed to the healing realm of birth loss. Our resources in this area are so much richer because Mary Burgess took the time to help us through this difficult area of life and death.

This book can be purchased through www.palmofherhand.com.

Jan Tritten is the publisher and editor in chief of Midwifery Today magazine.

Thank you, Jan!

Have you, or has someone dear to you, lost a baby to miscarriage, stillbirth, or within the first year of life? Were you the midwife or doula to someone who lost a baby?

If so, consider this lovely journal for yourself or this babylost Mama: Mending Invisible Wings – a healing journal for mothers who have lost a baby.

Within its pages are writings from others: mothers, doulas, a midwife, a father… each of whom have traveled this path. There are gently guided Healing Expressions, encouraging the reader to acknowledge, honor, and release her emotions surrounding this loss, plus an entire section of healing ceremonies. Poetry is woven throughout, like a golden thread. There are many illustrations on thick paper – to color, paint, write in, scribble on, decorate… illustrations that speak to a grieving woman’s heart. There are lots of blank spaces and room to think and write and draw and cry on and dream. There are visualizations and affirmations and suggestions for honoring the woman’s body, that she may so deeply feel has let her down.

There is no more difficult journey than to lose one’s child.

It is hard to find the words to say.

A gift of Mending Invisible Wings is a lovely place to start.

with love, m.

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And Emily’s site is a wonderful place to visit and know about. Enjoy this contest.

m.

7pm, Oct 15, Candles

Candles, Oct 15, 7pm

w/ Mother of All painting

These candles were placed beneath the Mother of All, a painting created by Shiloh. Do you know the story behind this painting? If not, here is an excerpt from Mending Invisible Wings…

ABOUT THE COVER PAINTING – A NOTE FROM SHILOH

The painting is entitled: Mother of All, Send Your Angels to Protect This Holy Soul, and she has an amazing story…

While being painted, somehow the painting got punctured. The canvas actually tore through, in the area just below her right breast. I was devastated. I had no idea what to do.

My mentor and family matriarch, Sue Hoya Sellars, used the painting to demonstrate the technique of mending a painting.  You cut a piece of canvas and from another canvas, and gesso underneath and many layers over the back. The whole process takes some time, and while I was doing it, I felt the healing journey in myself as well.

You cannot see the tear on the front anymore, although there is a slight dimple.  She has healed, but on the back is this wonderful little band aid, created with so much care, which taught me to do a technique of curing paintings that I have had to do many times since.  I feel a sense of affection for that spot on the painting now – and the whole painting took on another layer of energy.

My husband was on a trip when I was working on healing it and finishing it, and as soon as he got home, he said he had to have that special painting in our home. It hung in our house for over five years.  I made prints of it, which became bestsellers,
with the caption, Protection for this Woman.

When Mary and I were working this book, Mending Invisible Wings, this painting came to mind as WHO needed to be cover. Mary agreed and so I designed the whole theme around her opalescent blue and purple palette. Then after the cover was completed, I spontaneously asked my husband if I could have the painting back – and he agreed, reticently. I said that I thought she had another life to live, where others could see her. I hung her up in my studio.  Now, she belongs to Mary Burgess, the Author of this book, and it was through sharing with her the story of the painting, that this little writing got included as one of the last pieces in the book.
Mary and I both see the deeper meaning everywhere, and are always and ever eager to share the medicine just beneath the surface.

She has always been a guardian for women. She is very rich… her colors are opalescent and have lots of shimmer. She is totally at peace, and she is not the one wounded, but the one protecting, whom the Mother of All sent for us. She is a Guardian, a Protector. The painting is a prayer, and the prayer itself is written in the lower left hand corner.

She did take that one wound, but I feel, for our sakes, she endured it and healed to show us all how to heal our wounds. She is a sign of protection and of healing.

Mother of All, Send Your Angels to Protect This Holy Soul

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~ Stanley Kunitz, from The Testing Tree